Starting something new

A blog seems like a good idea. I have another blog I started anonymously about 8 years ago, but let's let that go for now. Here is some basis for the new blog and something about me.

When I visited my father in the hospital after his first heart attack, he told me “you are responsible for the scales of fairness.” I don't know whether he was referring to something from childhood (e.g., his response to when my siblings or I would say, “that’s not fair”), my general propensity to try to make the situation fair for all involved, his feeling that I provided some balance within my family, or a heart attack related drug induced dream thought that somehow included my visit. Probably it's all of that, because it's really what I perceive it to be. I have an innate desire for balance and reduction of conflict that is tied to a desire for peace, reasonable thinking, integrity, and truth. But I am learning this is also related to my need to reduce stress and anxiety in the world around me. Recently I learned that the chronic fatigue and other symptoms I have are due to a root cause of limbic system trauma. I am now learning, with the help of DNRS (https://retrainingthebrain.com/) and other therapy, to find balance for myself, heal from the trauma, and let lots of things go. I am very grateful to have found tools to heal and to be on this journey with wonderful friends, who are also healing, and a very supportive spouse and son.